This lesson was still fresh in my mind as I came to fill in the medical questionnaire later that day. I didn’t expect to find an existential crisis in some routine paperwork, but the cloud and the combination of the two questions met in my mind and got me thinking. That cloud was a metaphor for me, for my life. Internally, living with Asperger’s is like existing inside a cloud. Everyone and everything they do is confusing, I’m totally surrounded, without any reference points, or anything to anchor to. I’m lost in my own grey fog, with no idea where my boundaries are, or what shape I am.